We started just talking, telling jokes and hanging out over Skype, and the time was passing by for us without being noticed; and then, almost three years after we still have our nice conversations without feel the time passing by .
Mr. Green caught my attention in the first 5 minutes of talking in an international web chat site, we was not seeing each other or listening to each other so I felt totally comfortable to talk about everything and ask any question because I was not taking the risk of being judged for this pretty nice guy from UK (Did I mention how much I like England?). In some moment, the confessions, secrets and intimate debates and questions started to come out from us, and even overcoming our differences, I was trusting Mr. Green more and more and more. Books, movies, culture, tourism, adventures, faith and God’s existence, university, international financial crisis, career’s plans, future, relationship, sex, soccer, rugby … We talk about anything, we feel secure. We could be totally sincere; we can be sincere to each other ever.
Someday I realized I was crushed on his incredible big round eyes and the way he make me feel free being myself and opening up, I told him because it won’t be a warning to our friendship, so I told him using the words and being clear (I couldn’t fighting or hiding anymore) and He told me He feels the same <3 o:p="">3>
But , like me , He knows ,maybe we will never be together (because of our particular reasons that I don’t have to explain, I know it, He knows it and We solved our little issues by ourselves; This man is really good at talking.).
Before I see all this feelings growing inside me, I felt a rude affection for this little boy already. We were friends, and good ones. The truth is I have been loving you as a dearest male friend, and know I am putting a little more feelings in the part of my heart you made yourself a home in the day we said the first “Hi!”.
Some Physics specialist believe there’re parallel universes at the space-time warps, I’m not so sure, but, considering this possibility, maybe in one of this alternative worlds there’re another versions of us , and then We can be together as you want , as do I. But back to our reality, I’m happy to have you in my life and keep making you a part of it; I’m happy to finally let you know how I feel and have told you how your eyes affect me; I’m happy to be close to you and open the door to let you get in.
In the beginning of everything, In Genesis, God created all forms of life, those we know and those we do not know yet to our survival and belonging feeling; all world and universe was harmonicly created to us, but us, people, human being,were created by the Father in Heaven to be His friends. A few time after this, Eve was created to be with Adam, as his wife, helper and lover. What I meant telling all this things is the first relationship created was friendship; and all others kinds of relationships and bounding comes from inside a friendship.
When I say “I love you” to Mr.Grenn I’m not playing the innocent to mess his feelings or trying to get “the best of the both worlds”, I’m just being true . . . Of course would be nice become his girl and do all nice things couples do, and be around him and have him around me and let him take the best of me for as longer as we could but, if we never have a kiss, or share our beds and bodies, or never build a life together , I still will keep loving him in a better, higher and immortal way because He’s my friend.
Hey Mr. Green, I love you, and my love for you will never die, because it comes from God since the beginning, it is on me to give you. This love calls Friendship, and do not feel smaller because I’m telling this my Duckie ducky, you’ll never know how much you mean to me; you always meant. I will always love you, my friend! And please, NEVER EVER EVER go.