We started just talking, telling jokes and
hanging out over Skype, and the time was passing by for us without being
noticed; and then, almost three years after we still have our nice
conversations without feel the time passing by .
Mr. Green caught my attention in the first 5
minutes of talking in an international web chat site, we was not seeing each
other or listening to each other so I felt totally comfortable to talk about
everything and ask any question because I was not taking the risk of being
judged for this pretty nice guy from UK (Did I mention how much I like
England?). In some moment, the confessions, secrets and intimate debates and
questions started to come out from us, and even overcoming our differences, I
was trusting Mr. Green more and more and more. Books, movies, culture, tourism,
adventures, faith and God’s existence, university, international financial
crisis, career’s plans, future, relationship, sex, soccer, rugby … We talk
about anything, we feel secure. We could be totally sincere; we can be
sincere to each other ever.
Someday I realized I was crushed on his
incredible big round eyes and the way he make me feel free being myself and
opening up, I told him because it won’t be a warning to our friendship, so I
told him using the words and being clear (I couldn’t fighting or hiding
anymore) and He told me He feels the same <3 o:p="">
But , like me , He knows ,maybe we will never
be together (because of our particular reasons that I don’t have to explain, I
know it, He knows it and We solved our little issues by ourselves; This man is
really good at talking.).
Before I see all this feelings growing inside
me, I felt a rude affection for this little boy already. We were friends, and
good ones. The truth is I have been loving you as a dearest male friend, and
know I am putting a little more feelings in the part of my heart you made
yourself a home in the day we said the first “Hi!”.
Some Physics specialist believe there’re parallel
universes at the space-time warps, I’m not so sure, but, considering this
possibility, maybe in one of this alternative worlds there’re another versions
of us , and then We can be together as you want , as do I. But back to our
reality, I’m happy to have you in my life and keep making you a part of it; I’m
happy to finally let you know how I feel and have told you how your eyes affect
me; I’m happy to be close to you and open the door to let you get in.
In the beginning of everything, In Genesis, God
created all forms of life, those we know and those we do not know yet to our survival and belonging
feeling; all world and universe was harmonicly created to us, but us, people,
human being,were created by the Father in Heaven to be His friends. A few time after
this, Eve was created to be with Adam, as his wife, helper and lover. What I
meant telling all this things is the first relationship created was friendship;
and all others kinds of relationships and bounding comes from inside a
friendship.
When I say “I love you” to Mr.Grenn I’m not
playing the innocent to mess his feelings or trying to get “the best of the
both worlds”, I’m just being true . . . Of course would be nice become his girl
and do all nice things couples do, and be around him and have him around me and
let him take the best of me for as longer as we could but, if we never have a
kiss, or share our beds and bodies, or never build a life together , I still
will keep loving him in a better, higher and immortal way because He’s my
friend.
Hey Mr. Green, I love you, and my love for you
will never die, because it comes from God since the beginning, it is on me to
give you. This love calls Friendship, and do not feel smaller because I’m
telling this my Duckie ducky, you’ll never know how much you mean to me; you
always meant. I will always love you, my friend! And please, NEVER EVER EVER go.
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